last words for 2005

ok.. this entry is published quite late.. sori arr..

aku nak summarize all events dat happened throughout this year..

overall.. thn nie adalah sgt x menarik.. agak membosankan..

1. dis year i never went out of germany.. y?? sbbnyer aku buat 1st praktikal kat daimler... masa byk abeh kat situ..6 months.. aku pulak mase kat situ cam workaholic lak.. bukan aper.. tujuan nyer nak kmpl hour so dat bole abih awal.. tp kene abeh lmbt jugak sbb dekatlast2 ade workload yg sgt byk..ciss..

by the time aku abeh praktikal.. budak dah ramai blk mesia.. xde saper pon kat ulm or anywhere near us.. yg ade pon x nak gik jln sbb xde duit..abeh jauh pon pg rheinfall..

2. duit aku abeh cam waterfall.. amende aku buat?? for sure aku byk spend kat mkn.. tp badan x naik2 gak.. kl ckp kat org pon org x caya..

3. aku buat praktikal kat stuttgart.. ulang alik dr ulm..which take 1h 45min total dr aku melangkah kuar umah, naik tren, naik trem, pastu masuk ofis.. pg blk 3jam30min.. ruginyer.. pd hal masa tu bole guna utk spend masa ngan ewa.. bile blk pon dah penat.. xde sgt sembang2 ngan dia..

4. kaum kerabat aku dah berkurang sebanyak 4 org.. my granny Tok Yah passed away pas raya aritu.. (1912-2005) my god!! 93 thn.. panjang betul umur dia..but i believe she was very much older than dat.. org dl2 bukan betul sgt tulis thn lahir..maybe dah lahir 10-15thn earlier

yenti's granny lak tgh thn nie dia pg..sedih la jugak.. sbb dia baik..kl ikut pangkat..dia sama ngan tahap ngan my mom..which makes me yenti's uncle..eheh pak lang muda.. anyway x lama pas dia ninggal.. her husband lak passed away..pas raya aritu gak.. then yenti's uncle passed away sbb accident..

5. lately aku ade serious relationship issue ngan ewa.. remember 1st entry when i said i was mentally unstable right??..problems yg actually dah existed for some time finally emerged.. big time.. my fault to be exact.. we're currently working on dat.. ape resultnyer tu korang akan tau gak eventually..

nice thing dat took place dis year ; hmm ape yek??

1. aku dpt vordiplom (finally)

2. i've proven to myself dat aku ekceli bole bgn awal if i have the will...to get up or to not get up.. dats the question.. sbb time praktikal everyday aku bgn pkl 5:30pg so dat aku bole masuk keje 7:45.. so mean nak bgn pkl 7 to go class is not a big deal..

eheh tp sem nie it turned out dat jumlah jari tgn aku lg byk dr jumlah hari yg aku pg kelas pkl 8pg..hari2 lain normally masuk kelas 2nd period..

3. nothing else.. dats it

ape lg nak tmbh?? if i remember anything then i add it up..

lesen

at last hasrat aku utk buat driving license jerman yg dah tertangguh almost 3years since i came here, dah mula menampakkan sinar kenyataan bile 1st step utk dptkan license ni br jer aku buat td..

question: apsal aku beria sgt nak buat lesen nie??

answer: ntah la..xde sbb2 yg memaksa pon..maybe sbb aku suka tgk wallet aku..bile bukak jer byk btol doc/kad2 itu ini..buat kembung dompet..dl pon mase buat lesen mesia aku buat D n B full.. sesajer..manatau nnt kot kaya skit bole bawak motor besau.. siap ade hati nak buat lesen bas n lori.. ntah paper..

Q: perlu sgt ker aku buat?? pakai ke kat sini??

A: x perlu sgt pon.. aku pon jarang bawak kete.. for now..tp kl buat skarang at least x yah start all over from the beginning...yes u heard me right..start somewhere in the middle n save a lot of time n money

Q: xle pakai ke lesen mesia?

A: lesen kite nie just valid for d 1st 6 months jer.. pehtu dah xle guna

Q: what about international license?

A: we can use that license everywhere in EU except in Deutschland..diorang x accept..at least not int. license yg JPJ buat laa.. tp ade gak bebudak kite yg pakai.. selagi x kantoi ngan polis la of course.. hmm aku baca kat bah. forum dlm utusan .. student kita kat jepun pon ckp mende yg sama.. kene reject sbb int. license kite diorang ckp x ikut standard.. so wat to say arr?

Q: ok.. say that aku nak buat lesen.. what do i need to 1st??

A: get the following things ready : passport, m'sian dri. license, translation utk license, eye test (nak tau korang kene pakai spek or not), buat kursus 1st aid, gambar saiz passport, dptkan nama sekolah memandu n yuran 42,60€.. then give all this to Führerscheinstelle ( driving license dept.) dlm masa 3thn korang berada kat sini.. ( ini yg aku buat td.. my 3thn is almost up nx week)

Q:why do i hv to give those things dlm mase 3thn??

A: sbb dlm masa 3thn ni.. kl korang decide nak buat lesen.. x yah start dr awal(refer Q kat atas)
e.g. x wajib buat latihan memandu(tp digalakkan buat few hrs so that kenal jln kat sini)

Q: ok.. dah kasi dah ..then wat??

A: wait for 6-8weeks utk process.. bile siap korang bole la ckp lat sek. memandu kata nak start buat theorytical & practical test..tp of course la kene studi undang2 dia dl

ok so thats it for now..wat will happen during the test n baper kene bayar nnt aku kasi tau ok.. aku pon x sure sgt,, bile dah buat br la tau .. ok..

answering machine messages

nie sumthing yg aku dpt kat emel aku..five funny
answering machine messages (note: ade yg x sesuai utk
bacaan kanak2) :

(a). Hello, you've reached Jim and Sonya. We
can't pick up the phone right now, because we're
doing something we really enjoy. Sonya likes
doing it up and down, and I like doing it left to
right...real slowly. So leave a message, and when
we're done brushing our teeth we'l! l get back to
you.

(b). Hi, this is John. If you are the phone
company, I've already sent the money. If you are
my parents, please send money. If you are my
financial aid institution, you didn't lend me
enough money. If you are my friends, you owe me
money. If you are a female, don't worry, I have
plenty of money.

(c). Hi, I'm probably home, I'm just avoiding
someone I don't like. Leave me a message, and if
I don't call back, it's you.

(d). Please leave a message. However, you have
the right to remain silent. Everything you say
will be recorded and will be used by us.

(e). (Sexy female voice with heavy panting)..
Hi,you've reached 555-3456. John is in... (sigh)
Oh no, he's out... (aah) Yes, he's in again...
(ooh) No he's out... (aah) Why don't you just
leave your name and number and he'll call you as
soon as he...comes


hmmm..aku probably x pakai kut answering mashine..
ye laa..hp kan ade..bole sms.. ehh ye x ye jugak.. bukan
kat us diorang x pakai sgt kan hp nie .. ker?? wat do u
guys think?

pmr

at last aku tau jugak baper adek aku dpt for her pmr.. last saturday tepon umah..tu pon dia xde.. biasale.. merayap, ape lg.. akak aku yg ckp baper result dia.. then smalam tepon lg.. dis time br ckp ngan adek aku..

for normal people,, her result is ok la..not bad.. it's just personally i think she could do better than that... u ask me why??..

well.. for one thing she has the same einstein's brain my elder sister has.. means lg pandai dr aku arr..

tetapi..... sayangnyer.. she also has been infected wit the same desease that i suffered sejak azali lg.. apedia?? haa.. nama virus tuh ialah lazyius batcilusto malassus goddus .. or in common term is `virus malas tahap dewa´..

the difference is.. we had our dad back then yg always tunggu kitorang wit rotan sakti taming sari.. dats y arr result kitorang ok..ckp la nak hidup...

so cannot blame my lil sister at all.. kitorang pon salah gak..

u see.. my sis is a growing up teenager like any other teens who needs constant attention from us yg dah grown up ( or nmpk mcm grown up).. since ayah dah xde nak tunggu dia cam kitorang dl.. so dat job is our responsibility now..

tp aku kat cn..nun jauh kat tmpt omputeh..bro idup kat t'ganu, my elder sis dok kat alorsetar.. blk pon 2-3kali sebulan.. yd ade 24h pon is my mom..tp my mom dah tua..x larat nak tegur bebyk kl..tu pon macam la dia dgr sgt..(just like me..wee... awat laa hang ikut aku??)..

i asked her how she felt when she got her results.. a bit dissappointed she said.. n not enough study.. hmm.. aku pon dgr je laa.. nak buat caner...

tp xpe ..pmr je.. doesn't bring anything much kl score pon.. xleh cari mkn pon.. lain la spm..

i wish i could be there for her.. see her growing up as a teen..

ok.. enough wit that.. karang nie targetnyer is spm n ke atas yg lg penting..

nnt bile aku dah blk mesia n dpt keje dekat umah aku or anywhere near her study place,, aku nak soh dia dok kat umah aku so that aku bole tgk2kan dia hari2

25 December : the day my dad left us

Everyone in the world know that 25 Dezember is Christmas or Weihnachten, except those who still dok kat hutan la..

But for me, it's the day seorang insan bernama Abdul Rahim b Hj Salleh left us to Rahmatullah..this person was my dad. He died in 2002 just 2-3weeks before aku berangkat menimba ilmu kat cn..

now it has been 3years since he gone..today, this special entry is dedicated to ayah.

first of all,, let me ceghita a bit about his life ok..

• my dad was borned on 01.05.1946. about 1 year after ww2 ended, of which that date is later known as Hari Buruh..(tp aku xsure since when)
• he was raised as normal kg boy..living in Tasek Junjong, Seberang Perai.anak bongsu from 4 siblings..went to primary school (tp aku x tau skolah ape..camle korang tau skolah parents korang) tp what i do know is dia hari2 jln 5-6km pgblk to school..basikal i think later br dia dpt
• secondary at Bukit Mertajam High School kat Perai gak..premier school just like Penang Free School n MCKK.. cume x femes sgt je
• smbg blaja kat Maktab Perguruan Kota Bahru , Kelantan.(i'm not too sure tp kat Ktan la)to be cikgu BM..well u know..zaman dl saper jd cikgu mmg org pndg tinggi laa..apetah lg cikgu besar..it's just bapak aku nie pendek jer org nyer..(aku je yg tinggi..dpt genetik moyang aku..people said)
• kawen ngan my mom in 1970 atas pilihan famili..mak aku br 20years old time tuh.hmm dah kene kawen..
• sepanjang diorang bersama,inila resultnyer: kak aishah(1971),daud (1974) me(1982) n peah(1990)..jarak kitorang agak jauh laa..
• taught bm at various schools..last 2 schools is srjk(t) bukit mertajam, n srjk(t) perai..i know dat sbb aku dah ade kat dunia ni..tp heran laa..apsal bapak aku nie suka sgt ngajar kat skolah india.. maybe edu.dept kot letak dia kat situ..
• retired early in 1997 soon after kak aishah grad medic kat um..kata nye nak buat kebun laa, ladang laa..but sadly die x smpt tgk hasilnye..nnt la aku usahakan blk ladang kelapa sawit yg agak terbiar tuh..dusun toksah ckp laa..x nak beli kat tepi jln.nak sendirinyer..
• in 2000-01doktor found out dat my dad ade kanser usus or sumwhere between perut n usus..slalu la lepak kl kat (previously)umah kak aishah nak berubat..doktor kate diorang pakai ubat chemo yg br.. tp xde beza pon aku tgk..ok kejap jer pastu kene admit blk..badan yg dl berisi dah jd kurus..i was even surprised to see him at dat way..cam org x mkn..ekceli mmg pon since bl mkn sumer muntah blk,harapkn simple food yg easily digestable nak beri tenaga..Allah jer yg tau betapa sayunyer aku tgk ayah aku camtu although dl mmg hate him
• before this dia mmg ade sakit lemah jantung pon..slalu lepak kat IJN tu..tp,he passed away sbb kanser la on 25 December 2002

my dad was known as seorang yg sgt garang..kat umah, dialah raja..jgn la mandai2 bangkang ckp dia..when no, that means absolute no.

tp biler dah naik remaja, dah reti skit( biasala..semangat remaja) i fought for my freedom (eceh..cam dlm Braveheart lak), my teenage life wasn't a sweet one..

when i was a kid..i saw my dad gaduh ngan my bro..then few years later it was my turn. we're like fire meet fire..xle jumpa..(bro..sowee if u're against me writing this) ..

after all we are our dad's sons. received good genetics as well as bad one.(my bro received his stubbornness n me his bad temper tahap dewa tp karang x lg dah la..jgn la pulak korang lari dr aku nnt).

apart from dat,my dad is very bertanggungjawab n rajin..x penah la aku skali pon lapar..(lapar twisties tu lain laa)

every morning he wokes up early pehtu muncul kat kedai nak beli NST n beli makanan..kl ari skolah tu(time aku still primary) dia smpt nak beli bihun or nasi lemak je buat bekal..ye laa dia pon nak pg keje..

tp bile weekend jer..haaa amik ko..nasi bungkus lauk kari ayam or nasi lemak 7-8 bungkus pehtu roti canai berlapis2..manader famili lain bl breakfast je terus bantai nasi stail nak mkn tghhari..

but thanks to my mom's genetik kurus, aku xde la gemuk ala2 Giant dlm citer Doraemon or budak dlm citer Bad Santa although mkn cam x penah jumpe nasi.

he was also byk ilmu n up-to-date gak..ye la kl dah ari2 bc NST..BI die pon ok tp cos sumer takut, so xde saper nak blaja pape or practice BI ngan die.

aku nie disuruh bc NST slalu, tp alih2 aku bc komik kat NST jer or ruangan TV hari ini..
(eheh..tp turnout BI aku not so bad la..comics pon dlm BI so kire blaja la gak tu)
my mom ekceli fedup ngan dia so kekadang dia beli Utusan or BHarian..horee


~last days of his life~

i remember time raya akhir 2002..not sure whether still posa or dah raya..i was in living room watching tv when my dad came out of his room n said dat dia nak gik toilet..

he walked slowly with one hand on the wall so that dia bole jln. i starred at him kalau2 dia jatuh ke pe..tp bile smp depan toilet je, aleh2 lantai dah basah..sbb dah xde bladder control..

i nak tolong tp since my mom was there so she helped him n cleaned up the mess..

sedih gak la time tu to see that ur once powerful man of the house tetibe jd camni (read: remember this part cos it'll play its roll later on)

after raya my sis, her hubby n i blk to kl to resume our work..i had things to settle on too..few weeks later my mom called n told us dat ayah masuk hospital blk..so kami gegas la blk penang..

we spend 2-3 days there..then on the day kitorang nak blk..(well my sis decided to stay for a while so her hubby n i je blk kl) nak visit ayah kat hospital..we didn't talked much..dia pon x larat nak ckp..at least aku jengok la dia..

but ayah did ask me bile nak pg jerman..and i replied: "dlm awal januari ni,,passport dah siap..tunggu visa je lg".. he could still remember bout that (read: not sure bile fly but around dat date)..x lama pastu bile kitorang nak blk kl i salam and cium tgn dia( the 1st n last time i did dat)
(read:remember this part too)


~die pergi jua akhirnya~

on 25 December..ye la cuti kann..so ptg tuh tu rasa boring so nak kuar..buat my sis ckp dont go..i asked why..dia ckp mlm nie kite nak blk ..mak br call ayah tgh nazak..so i stayed..

that night bile kitorang tgh siap nak berangkat..my sis's hp fon bunyi around 9:00pm..and later kak went out of her room n said to me : " hapis..ayah dah x dak dah tau"..

i showed no reaction as if nothing happened..we went back to penang..sumer senyap jerr..in car i sms everybody to tell dat ayah has passed away..bile smp umah around 1am..rumah senyap jer..org yg dtg awal td sumer dah blk except close famili..

i went to his room n watched ayah's lifeless body atas katil covered with kain..i then sedekah surah for him.. my bro n his famili smp subuh..

~the next day~

on the next day ayah dimandikan kt umah gak..i helped to prepare brg2 mandi..u know..kapur barus, limau kasturi etc..

i still didn't show any sad emotion..then after dimandikan..he was wrapped with kain putih except head..

then org masjid said; "sumer ahli keluarga dia yg nak cium dia utk kl terakhir boleh buat skarang" ..starting from my mom n then us siblings..i saw kak aishah already cried kat blk near ruang tamu nie..

n when my turn came..i kissed forehead ayah..'tupp' .. the moment my lips touched his forehead..air mata terus mengalir,,terus rasa sebak n i ran to the kitchen as noboby was there..

i cried for the 1st time sengsorang kat situ..after that i pulled myself out..wiped out my tears so dat nobody realises n then joined the crowd back..

he was then disembahyangkan.i was quite surprised dat ramai sgt org turned up kat masjid, td kat rumah x ramai camtu.. later i was told dat ade jugak kematian kat tmpt lain dat day..so sumer yg dtg stayed kat mesjid to pray for ayah pulak..."ayah sgt beruntung" i said..

during pengebumian i actually turun kat lubang tu to help put ayah to his final resting place.. kite sumer pon last2 nak tinggal kat situ jugak kan while waiting for kiamat.


~since then~

maybe some of you wondered if i ever think of my father since we had a not-so-nice father-son relationship..

i always do..but so far there were 3 times that i really2 cried whenever i remember him

first : everything was going fine till after 3 weeks after aku smp jerman nie..

one night i had a dream..in that dream i saw my father came out from his room to go to toilet..exactly the same situation that i told u earlier..(read : last days of his life)..

but this time he looked terribly awful..i wanted to helped him so dat i can papah him to toilet but i couldn't..

i felt like i couldn't move n just watch him from afar..sedih sgt time tu dat cried in my dream..when i woke up i realised dat my tears was still shedding..which means i betul2 cry in reality while still dreaming..


second : i already started actual class kat ulm nie when one day i had another dream..

this time the situation is the one when i visited ayah for the last time at the hospital..(read: last days of his life)

everything was also exactly the same..only that..when its time to say goodbye..i salam him and then he hugged me.. i was so shocked but nevertheless sad to know that he really loves me..

i shed my tears in my dream..u know whatt....yess.. air mata betul2 ngalir..terharu pon ade..

then aku bgn to start my everyday life..bgn pg, gosok gigi, mandi n stuff like that.. tetibe je for one sec .. i asked my self..hari ni hari ape?..

then..haahhhhhh.... today is 1st May.. ayah's besday...

what was that dream all about?? why did i have this dream on this particular day?? was roh ayah really came into my dream to meet his son?? bole ke camtu? i couldn't help but felt keesaan Allah that day

third : this one x de mimpi paper..it was just one morning i woke up n teringat pasal ayah..

n i remembered all the rude n stupid things dat i have while he was still alive..rasa berdosa sgt time tu.. so jd la blk drama swasta..ehhe.. menangis x berlagu kata org..

nak buat camner..i cannot turn back time..

i called mak n citer everything dgn suara tersebak2.. terasa penyesalan x terbatas tahap 7 petala langit.. i told mak how much i wanted to meet him again n mintak maaf..

you see..ayah had a quarrel wit one of his sisters n was impolite (people said so) to her mother.. tp dat last raya diorang berbaik semula n sempat mintak ampun to her mom..n when he died, he passed away so easily tanpa sebarang rasa sakit n his burial went on without much problem..

so i was thinking wat will happen to me nnt when my time comes..dat is one reason sbb ape i felt soo guilty. then mak calmly replied dat before ayah left, he said he forgives us for everything.. n he is so proud us four..

when i heard she said dat..my feelings were all mixed up.. lg sedih, terharu, lega, etc..

she added that if i missed him so much,,so sedekahla yassin for him,, dats at least we can do..


both my atuks passed away long before i was born.. so i never know how it feels to have a atuk-cucu relationsship through the eyes of cucu..

i had tok Yah jer (ayah's mom), tu pon tok yah nie x sporting pon eheh..(btw she passed away raya br2 nie.. so alfatihah to her too ,1912-2005) n my father-son relationship pon x bagus sgt.

becos of dat..i sumtimes do get jealous whenever i watch films yg memaparkan kisah suka duka pasal atuk-ayah-anak that have hepi endings..

well.. bende yg lepas biarlah berlalu..there is nothing dat we can do about it (unless kuar lg sorang Einstein gik cipta time machine) except ambil iktibar from it..

so i promised myself a lot that when it's my turn to be a dad or atuk, i wont mess it up.. ever.. i will give my children/grandchildren the best a dad/atuk can offer..peace!! owhh..luper..1stly kene la buat anak dulu..eheh

so for everyone out there yg still hv mom& daddy..hargailah everymoment yg korang ade dgn diorang..u'll never know when will the last time u can ever meet them.. or they meet u

p/s : while there're a lot of people out there yg lg bernasib malang dr aku, at least dis is sumthing that happened to me... it's not my intention to meraih belas ihsan sesape..just sumthing yg aku nak citer, nak luahkan isi hati..orait??

Alone on Christmas Night

mesti ade yg blank apehal lak aku nie bukak citer krismas nih..padahal x celebrate pon..rilekss..ade sbb nyer..

firstly since mlm nie mlm ´raya´, aku nak wish pade sumer yg sambut krismas, meri krismas to u all..yelaa hidup pon kat tmpt omputeh..nak buat caner..

ekceli aku tulis entry sbb nak lepaih geram kat bus service tmpt aku nie..

camnie.. siang td aku pg neu ulm nak pinjam dvd (cam biasa la..nak mencopy) so pkl 8mlm td kene la bagi blk dvd tu (1st 6hour 80sen 1 dvd)..

bile aku smp jer kat busstop hauptbahnhof,, rupe2nyer bas dah xde.. ari nie smp pkl 6ptg jerr.. sbb mlm krismas.. (ye laa..nak kasi can sumer org beraya)

so aku termenung kejap.."wat to do arr??" kl nak bg esok lusa byk ler aku kene bayor nnt.. so i decided to walk to neu ulm..

aku ekceli cam sakit kaki ari nie.. arghhh..sial btol laa.. apsal time kaki aku sakit pulak kene jln jauh.. ari lain x leh kerr??

tmpt dvd tu ekceli x de la jauh.. dlm 20min jer..so from bahnhof nie aku jln kaki la.. ingat nak beli milkshake,, bole minum smbl jln..tp mcD lak tutup..sighhh..

bile aku cross stadtmitte,, aku tgk lengang jerr.. sumer org lepak kat umah..adelaa beberapa org yg take a walk dgn famili plus bebudak turki yg kat mesia bole diibaratkan kat mcm muka tembok kat shopping mall,,dok lepak2 n buat bising,, cam cool jer..wee!! pg blk laaa.

mase aku jln tuh.. teringat la aku scene dlm movie tema krismas.. kan ada part tu.. bile sorang tuh gaduh ngan sesaper or hidup dia mmg lonely.. mesti ade part dia jln2 sengsorang kat city..ber´background´kan kedai2 berhiaskan krismas stuff pastu lampu liplap2..pastu dia je jln kat situ..nak menunjukkan ke`lonelinessán org tu..bole imagine x?? bole?? haa camtu laa aku rasa bile lalu kat town aku..ehehhh.. tu psl laa dpt tajuk kat atas tu..

by the time aku smp tmpt dvd tuh.aku jln dah terhencot2 cam org patah kaki.. dlm ati asyik nyumpah2 org bas..

bile nak blk,,aku tgk kat busstop,, "ehh ade plak bas??" rupe2 ade nachtbus.. special bus yg normally lalu tgh mlm jer bile normal bus dah xde.. so aku tunggu le bas tu.. nasib baikk..

bile bas smp..aku tunjuk ler akunyer semester tiket..tp kene caj jugak 1,50€.. cissss.. driver ckp kene bayar nachtzuschlag (additional fee sbb naik bas extra nie).. aku x sure la kl x de sem.tiket kene bayar lebey ke x.. waduhhhhh..

pehtu kat dlm bas nie ade la sorang brader nie bising2 kat drebar kata itu ini n x nak bayar nachtzuschlag ..drebar tuh (yg nmpk cam org turki,, no wonder la willing nak keje) pon cam dah hilang sabar..bawak laju x ingat cam drebar bas mini kat mesia..

dia kata kat mamat tuh byk2 kali "awak x phm kaa.. ini nachtbus,, bukan bus no 6 or 7 ,, kl saya x bawak bas nihh.. awak x jln tauu.. kl nak jugak kene naik taxi.. plss laa jgn kacau saya"

pehtu mamat tu bebel lg..kata nak turun kat ehingertor sbb bus no 7 lalu kat situ n kebetulan bas nie pakai almost similar route.. drebar bas jawab : " wee.. awak x dgr ka..ini nachtbus ,, so saya x lalu ehingertor..saya pg straight ke hauptbahnhof ZOB"..

aku pon kate kat brader tuh: "bang.. nie bas N6 ,, bukan bas 6 or 7.. lg pon ehingertor tu dekat je ngan hauptbahnhof.. bole jln kaki".. he said " mana saya tau.. no 7 lalu sini" ... " yee..saya pon x tau,, tp nak buat caner" i replied..

sampai jer kat bahnhof.. drebar bas tu hon2 .. rupe2nyer dia nak pggl sumbody.. pehtu dtg la sorang pakcik ni ngan buku apetahh..

by that time aku pon dah kuar dr bas nak blk umah.. aku agak brader td maybe kene saman kot.. aku pon taktau laa..aku asyik pk psl kaki aku nih.. sampai karang still sakit... aduhh saleha..

Mende Ngarut 1 - 12/05

Romance Mathematics

Smart man + smart woman = romance
Smart man + dumb woman = affair
Dumb man + smart woman = marriage
Dumb man + dumb woman = pregnancy


Shopping Math

A man will pay $2 for a $1 item he needs.
A woman will pay $1 for a $2 item that she doesn't need.


p/s: mana pegi adek aku nihh..tepon2 x dpt..baper tah result die

Ulm's Weihnachtsmarkt

Tadi aku pg Weihnachtsmarkt (see pic) kat Ulm nie.background ist Ulmer Münster..church yg jd landmarkt Ulm nih.

W'markt or Christmas Market (literally translated) nie take place every year for 1 month till krismas..alaa much like bazar Ramadhan arr..

n guess what..today is the last day..so ari ni br la terpk nak pg.. ajak sha n jan ikut sama since they live nearby.. sekentut je dah smp.. but sha was nowhere to be found so pg ngan jan je..

ekceli i dont hv anything specific to buy kat situ since i don celebrate krismas..tp markt nie jual jugak mende lain..such as baju n socks made of wool, souvenirs etc.

but since i'm a guy n guys only buy things dat they need, so aku x de nak beli paper.hm..maybe i do, sumthing to eat. for jan, she wanted to buy dinnerplates sbb aritu dah pecah..

we went there around 7:30pm..x tau pkl baper bukak..but what we do know is that diorang dah nak tutup..since dah ramai yg start bungkus2 barang..hmm diorang x nak untung ker??yelaa,, kat mesia kan kl jual paper pon mesti nak abis lmbt sbb nak maksimumkan untung especially last day..

jan x jd beli pinggan but instead beli mug which hv her name carved on it.."lawa la jugakk" i said to myself.."tp issh jgn astar...ko x pakai pon.. gelas dah byk.."

we walked around the market to look if there's anything worth to be eaten,, tp mostly jual sosej jer..besor2 lak tu..tp of cos la x leh nak mkn..

aku teringin nak mkn this particular food dat look like a lempeng,,ape tah namanyer..tp x der or org yg jual dah tutup kedai..so end up beli cookies jer..aku beli erdnusssplitter(peanut) n hollywoodsplitter (coconut+marshmellow)..cookies nie nmpk x lawa..cam biskut kepal2 tp i bet rasa dia not bad arr..

since kitorang x mkn kat situ,, so pg somewhere utk lepak2 n minum kopi jap..2-3 kedai penuh termasuk Henry's so last2 pg la italian restoran kat ceruk mana tah..tp dr niat nak minum kejap je,, aleh2 terus order italian food..dah jd dinner lak padahal ade jer mende nak mkn kat umah.. x perlaa..skali-skala..

9:30pm kitorang dah smp umah..n aku lak terus try cookies yg aku beli td smbil tgk anime..n those cookies did taste quite good..

pmr result coming out today

haaa...result pmr kuar ari nie..baper laa adik aku dpt.. nnt aku tepon

a lesson learnt

Today God decided dat it was time for me for another lesson in Life 101.. ekceli it wasn't anything new..tp bile kite ´menjalani liku2 kehidupan´,, we tend to forget important rules of life..So somehow someway ade jer sesaper yg muncul to remind us of them..

camni alkisahnye;

today i attended 8am class (eheh.rajin lak aku ari nie), Fahrzeugkonstruktion.. a class similar to LK(lukisan kejuruteraan) during highschool tp lebih kpd kete,, lukis body kete to be exact..

tgh sibuk lukis2..Herr Goebel came to me to see if i need some help..dia pandang jer lukisan aku..

then he asked; " awak sure ke lukisan awak buat nie betul?"

"betul cam ne?" i asked myself..aku blank kejap..

Herr Goebel: "cube awak compare pandangan depan n tepi A-pillar ni dgn pndngan atas yg awak buat..cam ner curve ni pg cam nie n curve tu pg camtu? awak rasa logik x result yg awak dpt?"

me: "errr..ye le kot..ntah ler cikgu..dah saya lukis2 pehtu dpt camtu..betulla rasanyerr"

H. Goebel: "bole awak terang kat saya bah. mana kat kete yg buat curve tuh jd camni?"

me:"err..uuu..arrrr..good question..".. eheh..

dia dah geleng2 kepala..by dat time i knew i'm in trouble..i just tersengih jerr

H.Goebel:"nnt kan..awak nie bile habis blaja awak akan jd Diplom-Ingenieur.. bile keje nnt ade time awak dilantik jd head for some project or jd bos utk dept awak..as a boss awak kene make sure sumer keje yg grup awak buat tu betul/fit wit other parts/functioning.. nampak ok jer x semestinyer betul..pastu bile betul awak kene confident awak yg dah cek sumer..sbb pas nie awak akan sign dokumen mengatakan project dah siap n diperiksa"

H.Goebel:"projek yg siap akan dihantar ke production,,kat situ duit byk dilaburkan..bile dah produce tp tgk2 ade error..awak le yg responsible.."

i said nothing...he has a point,very good one..haahh..amik ko..kene sebijik aku ari nie..

only then he took out small merc modell car n explained how did i get that result.. mmg betul la keje aku ekceli..

moral: always check n recheck ur work and be confident about it..

Sijil

at last semalam aku singgah jugak Sekretariat. mana x nyer..abih sumer org Frau Meyer tuh tanyer mana Herr Rahim nie pg..x nak sijil ker?

Well di cn aku nak announce kat korang yg aku dpt jugak sijil VorDiplom (predegree)..eheh..baper noten aku dpt tu..segan la nak ckp..x bukannyer terer pon, org lain sumer dah lm dpt dah..dah dekat nak abih blaja dah..

secondly..aku pick Konstruktion und Entwicklung as major (construction n development) seperti jugak am, che n budak2 kiter yg lain..x de masa aku nak amik Energietechnik.. korang nak ke ngadap thermo 2?? thermo 1 pon aku x lepas lg nihh..

earlier dis week aku dpt dah sijil utk 1st praktikal aku last sem kat Daimler..lmbt gak arr diorang antor..dah la nama bapak aku susun terbalik pehtu kat dlm testimonial diorang dikutuknyer aku kaw2..tau la aku nie Auslander,,xde hebat ckp jerman..tp at least tulis la sumthing yg sedap nak didengar.. baik ke.. berbudi bahasa ke..ini x..tulis betul2 honest punyer..

which roughly translates :
Herr Rahim took care of the work assigned to him and produced satisfactory performance. it was connected to a certain effort ,at least not because of language barrier, that his work contents were understood (means keje yg aku buat diorang kene cek betul2 dulu barula diorang paham pastu baru la diorang accept) .Herr Rahim was a self-restrain, quite n introvert worker. After a survey from us at the end of his practicum, he wasn't 100% sure that n working as a constructor/engineer is right field for him. ( aku ekceli nak ckp yg aku probably xkan jd engineer kat jerman tp kat mesia..cn cam susah jer aku tgk..tp bos aku interpret yg aku x nak jg engineer langsung..apa daa)
We write this circumstance, that on the fact Herr Rahim is still in the first practical semester. we thanked him for his performance and pleasant cooperation bla bla bla...

ishh3..aku rasa cam nak amik senapang bapak aku n gi tembak diorang nie..

diorang expect kite nak pg sembang ngan diorang cam kite sembang kat kedai mamak..mana boleh..kita ckp bahasa diorang tu pon kira diorang ptt bangga dah..

cube soh diorang blajo b. melayu..bole ke x..kat klas blaja melayu standard surat rasmi tp kat luar pakai bahasa pasar..mau x biol diorang.. tu blom lg pg kedah or kelantan..

lg cintan

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

lagu nie dr James Blunt..posted by sumi on her blog.. nice song..good idea to hayati.. aku layan gitar die..relax jerr

lab regelung

haahhhh.. sonang gilo buek labor ari ni...aku yang dummy psl regelungstechnik n buta matlab nie pon phm..

mana x nyerr.. almost sumer mende lab assistant tuh tunjuk..just ikut je ape die ckp..

tp of course laa..kl x sbb che yg terer (oo x cukup ee,,haa aku up lg) >che yg handal pasti lab nie 1 haprak pon x reti..

plus smalam kitorang pg rujuk sifu amzani psl lab..dia pon buat xperimen yg sama ( ade 2 xperimen..dpt mana nasib laa) so dia citer la skit2 camner nak buat..

so kitorang x de la terkejut beruk.. xperimen nie ekceli dr zaman tok nadok lg..mmg sebijik..bile lab assistant kasik kertas lab..che ckp : ´wee..jom blk arr..´ kl nak salin bulat2 pon bole..just ergebnis/result je lain..alaa cam buat bericht/report sains kat sekolah laa..kan bole tiru jekk.. cuma hasil je lain2

aku yg tgn-gatal-buat -keje-lain-padahal-esok-ade-lab mula menulis

assalamualaikum wahai dunia..hmm..nie ape mimpi aku nie nak buat blog nie .. gile ke pe..

astar dat i know adalah sumbody yg plg malas memegang pen,pencil etc.. apetah lg menulis surat dan membaca..

tetibe ghajin pulak buat menatang nih.. zaman cinta monyet dulu,,(eceh..cinta monyet lak dia) bole bilang baper surat cinta yg aku dpt tuh aku reply blk..( alaa.. zmn aku hp x tk femes lg..posmen karat adalah method yg plg disukai ramai) 10:1 ..kl 100 surat cintun dpt..10 je jwb blk..( hehe..ca u probably laughing right now)..

ntah laa..aku nie dah berzaman asyik bc blog org.. ade org yg suke post kómen bebyk smp other people ckp : ´woi.. buat blog sendiri laa´. so aku nie although asyik bc jerr terasa la jugak.

Setelah beberapa ketika menimba ilmu kat blog org..so aku pon rs ade la bende yg bole aku ceghita kat dunia to speak up my mind.

lg pon for the time being i'm mentaly unstable..so maafkan la aku krana gatal tgn nak bukak blog nie..

haaaa ..2006 pon lg 2 weeks so anggap la membukak blog nie new resolution aku ( ceh.. alasannyer) ok laa..tu jer nak ckp..aku pon ade lab regelungstechnik ptg nie..x reti 1 haram pon..mengharap kan che la nak buat versuch nie.. (allaa che..ko kan terer)..chow